I’m really sick of people constantly asking me to make life-changing decisions. I am not good at making decisions. My personal philosophy for the last three years has been the following:
- Surround myself with people that I like
- Dissasociate with those who hurt me
- Be happy as long as it is not at the expense of others happiness
- Try to make other people happy
I followed these rules instead of a formal religion. I feel now it has culminated in these circumstances:
- I have fewer, but closer friends
- I have to make harder choices about WHO to make happy when conflicts arrive
- I more frequently find myself giving up my own happiness for others
- This last gift does not spontaneously mean I will support them, just get out of their way
I still feel nothing.





I planted this tree in my grandma and grandpa’s yard in Garden City, MO from an apple I was eating that day. It’s about eighteen years old in this picture, which is very old for a tree this small. It has been ran over several times I think. It must have a large root system though for being so old. I’m not sure. You may or may not be able to see the pond in the background just beyond the fence. Behind the photographer is a barn they called Erich’s barn because it was the middle-sized barn and I am the middle child of the three boys.

The Franklin Collection